On Self-Confidence

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I’ve never been one to hold confidence in myself. I’ve always been in a world of self-doubt and uncertainty. Never believing in myself, my choices, or my lifestyle as much as I should. I was often proud of my views but I didn’t always carry them boldly. Ever since Maddox was born, something slowly, gently, and unexpectedly shifted.

Confidence is a magnificent quality of self-assurance. One that many people lack, one that I lacked for the longest time. There are many ways to build it up and move forward with heads held high. Plenty of experiences to teach us this quality. Our life is a series of navigating, building, and breaking the doors to our confidence through all the influences we encounter daily. Confidence seems to always need a key ingredient of an outside energy source to fuel itself.

Yet there’s a confidence that cannot be influenced or taught. One that lives within our bones and the depths of our soul. It dwells organically and is known, strengthened, and nurtured by the heart and the intuition of self. It is unlocked by one key alone: pure love.

This is what my new mama skin has taught me.

Giving birth to Maddox has been humbling. It has created a newfound confidence within me. Never have I felt so decisive and knowing than now and I trust in myself more than ever before. I have researched everything under the sun yet what I execute in motherhood is what I know to be true and safe within my heart. It correlates with an ancient sisterhood of mothers. Everything has felt natural and innate. Everything has felt a part of me.

This is a confidence I wish to instill in Maddox. Tides may constantly shift, but this inner knowing is eternal. This inner source holds a power to learn, love, fail, ebb, and flow. This confidence needs to be respected and revered. We must water it and nurture it day by day. This confidence was born within the womb and is buried within ourselves on Earth. It’s only a matter of unlocking it.

Motherhood is a strange, certain thing that has torn me open. One thing I can say with surety is being a mother is eternal.

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2 thoughts on “On Self-Confidence

  1. What a beautiful, motivating, empowering post! Your voice is so genuine and true and STRONG! I loved reading your words and I could hear your encouragement and power. I think it’s absolutely wonderful that you have found confidence as a mama, and it resonated with me. Suddenly, I don’t care about little things that used to plague me, like trying to fit into a size 2 or having the perfect manicure. Now, I show up at the grocery store looking rather beastly and I don’t care because I know that motherhood has matured my heart and my intelligence and my ability to be kind, which is way more important and brings me so much more confidence. Thank you for sharing your story and inspiring me and other readers. Loved it!

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    • It’s amazing how much being mother can transform you into a new creature. Frayed yet somehow ethereal as well. We are blessed to be marked by the hands of motherhood. I can look at myself with a forgiving heart when I haven’t plucked my eyebrows in a couple days and my hair is still in a messy bun.

      Thanks for your words of encouragement ♥

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